Despite being well into my middle age, I’m still not very good at adulting. I’m too impulsive and needful of instant gratification for starters. I’m now older than my Mum was when my memories of her begin and she always seemed so grown up. Maybe it’s a perception thing, you know, judging others’ outsides by my insides. I have no idea if she still felt 18 that time at Christmas when we had my nan, aunt, uncle and cousin to stay where everything was super organised and ran perfectly to plan. I can’t begin to think how to manage a holiday on that scale, including matching bed sheets and towels for everyone!
The thing is, I’ve never felt grown up, whatever that feels like. I’ve had friends who manage to achieve it, from the immaculate house, to well-managed finances and yearly holidays in adult only hotels as well as the patient maturity where they don’t allow their emotions to get the better of them. Ever. Needless to say, we’re no longer friends.
I’m still a hormone riddled, insecure, messy and disorganised teenager at heart. I’m a little older in somethings; I flounce less, sulk even less (not difficult as I think I spent from 12 to 17 in one continuous sulk) and, whilst I don’t actually do it myself (Mr Weaving Heart is the designated packer), my bags are packed at least two hours before departure these days.
Knitting, crochet etc is very good at teaching me to adult. It requires patience and persistence. I remember my Dad noting on the first occasion I proudly presented a finished object that it was the first occasion I’d actually stuck with something. Not a great achievement at the grand old age of 36.
One of the ultimate tests of fibre grown up-ness is making a garment from fleece to finish. It requires a fairly large quantity of spinning all the same fibre, knitting of said yarn into something wearable. Now for someone with the attention span of a gnat, it can be a tough call. However, I’m well on my way to completing a Comfort Fade Cardi with a handspun fade sweater pack from Hilltop Cloud.
I think the main reason for my success is that the spinning kind of snook up in me; I worked my way through the five braids almost without noticing while I was engrossed in my Lilliana blanket (I’ve just realised I haven’t blogged about finishing this! You can take a look at it by clicking in the link) so that was painless. As for the knitting, it’s been super quick as I started it less that a week ago and I’ve nearly finished the first sleeve so will hopefully have it this weekend.
So although it’s a big project, it hasn’t required any real maturity of sticking with something. As for that quality, well, we’re coming to the end of the year when I’ll be reflecting on my progress with the goals I set myself at the beginning of 2017, including my hexipuff blanket project. Hum. All I can say is don’t hold your breath.